HELLO. I HAVE MADE A TERRIBLE MISTAKE AND IT'S ONLY 12AM. Last night I was like, MEGA drunk, ok not really only like 2 bottles, but maybe i'm like super lightweight idk, but I was drunk or tipsy or something and I'M SO STRESSED. I was texting my best-friend/crush and I TOLD HIM THAT I LIKE HIM AND THEN I TURNED MY PHONE OFF. I can't bring myself to look at his response I am so insanely embarrassed, i'm like shaking. WHY DID I DO THAT. I woke up and I was just like "hooly shiiiiiit" after remembering what happened because if he says no, WTF DO I DO!? And if he says yes, WTF DO I DO!? UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm just so dumb. I'm glad we're on midterm so I don't have to face him for a whole week, like, I have time to fix my problem. ALSO. I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. I'm fucking stupid. Yesterday I literally ghosted my boyfriend after we made plans to go on a walk to clear my head, and I have 9 unread messages from him, like I just don't care anymore. I need to become a hermit and block everyone out of my life and live in a ditch or something. I'm such a dumbass. I'll update this when I have the balls to read what he said- if he even responded. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHAT IF HE DOESN'T LIKE ME BACK WHY DIDN'T I THINK THIS THROUGH. If the message is something like "I don't feel the same" i'm seriously overdosing tonight i'm not fucking joking. O.K that's kind of extreme but like I seriously might aswell die after this amount of humiliation. In every way but physically, I am looking down the barrel of a gun. ATP i'm just typing here to distract myself like I do not know what to do bro.