i've never felt worse! yay. at least there's a new mitski song. i went to a thrift store with ayse and i found a perfect gorillaz cd. someone fainted in my classroom. that's kinda it. i'm super demotivated rn i just wanted to give a quick update. life is getting better..?
HALLOWEEN MPARTY IBA FEW HOURS AND ANDY IS GOJNGTO BE THEREAAHAHAFSGDVGRVDVRBDVRHVRGHDSHFSAHFSJSG;VSHDGJSUSBZF;£-;°HSUWVWYHAF+#&+TWJAFAJYEJWVWGSHAAAAAAAAAAA!?3!&? djjdbrbrr also ealrier ayse was on vc w me showinf me rhis game she was plahing we were vcing for loke thrwe hours and i was rereading msgs from when we were dating (KIND OF BAD IDEA) and it got me cheesiiing TBh kmfg i got a crush kon goddamn everyoneeee wttf??AND I have a boyfriend i'm a terrilbleh person.
update on the halloween party: it went well ;)) we carved pumpkins and hit pinatas and i talked to ANDY and i made ANDY laugh and ahhh ahhHHHHH so cute so fun i'm pissed off at ayse right now but otherwise love my friends. being mad at ayse has never done anyhing for me anyway. so weird that this time last year i was around people that were terrible for me and in a terrible situation and now i'm at a halloween party where half the playlist is alvin and the chipmunks songs. guess it does get better. things have settled down a bit at home. all is well, or as okay or not-okay as it's ever been. all is *normal*.we watched a couple halloween movies, my favourite being halloween. (like micheal myers). tbh he's like super sexy. i think michael would let me live tbh hed slam me against the wall and id moan and hed be curious. for some reason i'm attracted to slasher killers and like bad movie people and i'm just praying it's some psychological defect in my head and NOT a kinky fetish weird thingie. i came to this self-awareness when i watched american psycho and i want to slap patrick bateman in the face and tell him how pathetic he is until he breaks his stupid character and starts crying and he cant even kill me because he knows he wont find bomb ass pussy anywhere else. (an: if future me ever finds this i'm sorry. all jokes)
ALSO- i was on my daily stalking-peoples-spotifys like 20 minutes ago and this super smart super pretty totally out of my league kinda chav kinda not girl was listening to green day. WHAT!? instantly hot. BTW: i don't hate basic people. whatever makes them happy!!